It hurts doesnt it when someone does not accept you into a group or a friend zone. Especially when they tell yr siblings not to bring u ..cause u dont fit in. Even if ur elder den some of dem. Its so depressing. I try my best to strive for happiness but none is obtain.

Dear All

Well its been another new week. Since raya holidays..  How are U guys doing. Well as for me its been the same. But the funny part is even if u have a million friends around u. You still go home alone and sleep alone. Unless you have a special someone . Lol I dont have one. And lol dats the first time I am using LOL. Well I want to share about this trip that I have been dreaming to go for. It is in Thailand. Seems so interesting. The traveler here stated the beautiful places she been in there. Its Escape To Exotic Koh Samui. The place is just breathtaking . When I go there someday will take original pictures for now this is all I can give u.😆😆😆😆😄😄😄

Dad in agony

Dream 1

My dream for today was so shocking I felt it in my body that it was so real. The dream bagan with my sister and I. Where both of us were in my grandmas house.That is my dad's mom. So then i realised that there were additional 4 kids to the family. But the weird part was my dad was not there. And for my suprise my mum remarries this new guy. Even if it maked no sense. I heard my brother left the family. I tried taking care of my family and caring for them and taking care of them like how an older sister would do. Then one day I couldnt act like everything is okay. So I started crying and crying out loud until my mum comes out and I forcefully asked her where is my father. Since I tried calling him several tiems and he wouldn't answer. I felt my body crying for so long. I couldnt react. My mum then tells me that my dad was sentenced to prison with this guy who cheated us in real life. Apparently both of them had a agruement. Then I became worse and i saw myself with an asthma attack. And I couldnt breath. Then I saw my cousin brothers in my house. So was my sister's boyfriend. He asked me to follow him to the atm with them. When I was coming back to the house I saw 2 cars one white viva and another black car I think. I checked both cars there were onlt stiff of us. That looked like he was hurt. Apparently I didnt check the seat infront. His younger brother drop him home. And I was balling up like a baby. And I rushed to hug him and tell him. No matter what happens I will be there for him.

I had so much of dreams about my dad. I guess I just love him that much.